Some how knowing that I won't be poked and prodded as much for a while makes it easier to deal with the discomforts that are seemingly a part of a regular day. Some days I think I have grown accustomed to the pain...then I get a new symptom! Ever changing...always an adventure.
SO what does 6 months mean to me?? The last 6 months meant I was able to see my son in multiple productions...All Shook Up, Little Mermaid, Music Competitions, multiple concerts, Middle School Graduation, where he played guitar in a Vocal Ensemble performance and the past 2 weeks in Bye Bye Birdie and tonight in Suessical! These are all blessings...that I am here, that I am well enough, that I can share his life and excitement! The next 6 months...it means we get more holiday opportunities with family...to build on our traditions that will stay with my children forever. I get to be here to support Christian as he begins his first year in High School. To guide him, to teach him...well, maybe not Math...but how to treat a girl, how to be respectful, how to be strong, to stand up for yourself, to dream big, how to be positive, how to have "safe" fun and to never be pressured! It is so important to share these things with my children...especially Christian being the youngest. But there are still so many things I have to share with my adult children...things I need to be here to experience. I still have to see my son, Rob find and marry the man of his dreams...he still needs a mother's guidance and emotional support...Then there is Deana...I need to be here to see her graduate school....again! To see the accomplishments and guide her with her new career. I need to see her find the man of HER dreams, marry and give me some grandchildren!! I want to be here for my son Joe when he realizes my words come from experience when I say...You have to make time...you will never find it!! I need to be here to see my grandbabies want to be with their Mema! I need to be here to do a parents job...to teach their children at all stages of their lives!
So, I NEED a LOT of SIX MONTHS!!! I need so many of them that they will become years...years that I can have with my family...my husband...the husband that took me so long to find and has made me the happiest I have ever been in my life...we are a complete family! We all fit together to make one big circle...unbroken. I need to be here so the circle remains unbroken!
Well, I guess I have to take the time as it comes to me...making the best of every moment. Making sure to not let the moments go by without recognizing them. Teaching my children by example...by living each day to the fullest, by sharing the best parts of me with those around me, by loving freely, forgiving quickly and always being free enough to DANCE, to enjoy the salt air on your face and sing in the sunshine!! Living like each day could be your last!!
I will feel thankful for the 6 months, I will pray for the 6 months after that...and after that...and so on. But I vow to not take it for granted and will continue to enjoy my life, make new friends, open my home to those around me, share what this foundation is for...and assist those families battling this unfair disease...the only way we can...day by day!