Well, had a great day yesterday...was able to make a big pot of soup (for Lou) and pot of gravy (sauce for you americans) because Christian wanted cavatelli with ricotta and mozzarella. Got it all done!! Felt great about it! Then kind of colapsed! But I did get through it and even got to see Amy and her daughter. Makes me thankful everyday but also makes me wonder how SO much can happen SO fast to one family! I see Lou failing and it hurts so badly. To know that now Amy's father is in the same position...they operated for pancreatic cancer (like Lou) opened him up and closed him...it had spread too far! How does a women handle knowing she is losing her husband, her father and still be strong enough to support her children through it all?? No one could make this stuff up! It has to make you all thankful, thankful for everyday you have with your families, to take care of them and yourself. Enjoy your days no matter how nice or nasty the weather maybe. Call those people most important in your life, tell them you love them and share what they mean to you...in your life. Make ammends because one day you may not be able to.
It took me a bit when I became ill to come to terms with it all. I slowly came around to the fact that cancer is a gift. It is a gift to remind us to live our lives they way we REALLY want to..not the way we end up living it. To be sure to say what we need to say and give the forgivenss we may have been holding back on. I know as a mother it is my job to make sure my family is whole before I breathe my last breath. This was SO reinforced for me with the loss of my beloved but stubborn brother. He held his emotions so tightly in him he forgot to actually say the words...you just had to know how he felt. He left unfinished business because he didn't expect to die...how can I do him a disservice by not taking advantage of my GIFT...my gift of cancer? So I tell you all...we all know it...we NEVER know. We may receive the gift of cancer or some other thing that gives us the time to fix our error...but we never know...Live each day like you are dying. Laugh, enjoy, don't clean the house instead of doing what you love...the mess will still be there. Do what you must but never miss a chance to love your life, your family, your friends the things that give you joy!
We all think we can do it tomorrow....make your time now...live your days as if they are your last. Take it from Lou's family...the time can come when you run out of days. Everyday is important...it doesn't have to be monumental..it can be that phone call or visit you keep putting off...do it...do it everyday...one more thing...everyday...day by day!
I must take the last moment to thank all of you who have been there for us...I Love you all!!
It took me a bit when I became ill to come to terms with it all. I slowly came around to the fact that cancer is a gift. It is a gift to remind us to live our lives they way we REALLY want to..not the way we end up living it. To be sure to say what we need to say and give the forgivenss we may have been holding back on. I know as a mother it is my job to make sure my family is whole before I breathe my last breath. This was SO reinforced for me with the loss of my beloved but stubborn brother. He held his emotions so tightly in him he forgot to actually say the words...you just had to know how he felt. He left unfinished business because he didn't expect to die...how can I do him a disservice by not taking advantage of my GIFT...my gift of cancer? So I tell you all...we all know it...we NEVER know. We may receive the gift of cancer or some other thing that gives us the time to fix our error...but we never know...Live each day like you are dying. Laugh, enjoy, don't clean the house instead of doing what you love...the mess will still be there. Do what you must but never miss a chance to love your life, your family, your friends the things that give you joy!
We all think we can do it tomorrow....make your time now...live your days as if they are your last. Take it from Lou's family...the time can come when you run out of days. Everyday is important...it doesn't have to be monumental..it can be that phone call or visit you keep putting off...do it...do it everyday...one more thing...everyday...day by day!
I must take the last moment to thank all of you who have been there for us...I Love you all!!
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