Now Wednesday we will say our good byes as we begin our lives with out the friend, the husband, the father, the son, the brother...the man that was Lou!
I went to OUR oncologist today for my regular appointment and shared my thoughts of Lou with Bruno and made sure I saw his favorite nurses and told them the news of Lou. They all had wonderful memories of Lou to share...from his humor to his love of Renissance Fairs! We will all have our memories and the way Lou touched our hearts and lives.
Then I had my appointment. Disussions of MRIs of my Brain to rule out Metastatic disease in my brain. Len asked if I was worried...I don't know...some how you never think this can REALLY happen to you! So part of me worries but the other part of me is sure this can never happen to me! I know Lou did this battle too. Never believing it could REALLY happen.
So I put my MRI off till next week and then we will know...for now...it is alway just for now...
So tomorrow I move forward, I see my patients, I do my paperwork, I plan events for our fundraisers. Able to forget for a time that I, too am a cancer patient. It is so sureal at times..like a dream or a nightmare. Losing Lou brings it to the forefront for a lot us doing the battle...I hear it in Nancy and I hear it in my own head.
But we will stand strong, do what we have to do...welcome the people that become like family because we share a disease...and there are many! We will make this foundation STRONG and capable so it can help the many...That will join our group against their own will...for this is a group no one REALLY wants to join. We will embrace them and help ease their burdens the way our foundation is designed to....day by day!