I sit and I wonder when is it going to get any better...they tell me I have to give it TIME! How much more time does it take to get over ALL of that!! And when/if I do get over it...when will it all start again??? I know being positive is the most important thing...but anyone who as had cancer always wonders.
I spent the day in, mostly because I have been too sick to really do much. I try to eat then get nausea...tried to grocery shop and ended up sitting down because I was short of breath, had pain in my chest..WHY?? No one knows! Then there is the sharp needle type pain straight through my breast all the way to my chest wall. Excruciating...this they say can happen after radiation! Such is the day in the life of a recovering cancer patient.
So, as I say...Does it EVER get any better??
So much for being positive...being thankful...seeing how much better off I am then others!! Sometimes PAIN is just that...PAIN! Doesn't matter that I LOOK better....I know most days are definitly better then THOSE days of chemo...however, PAIN is PAIN!! Feeling like CRAP is still feeling like CRAP...and there never seems to be an end to it!
Well I guess this is my day to bitch! Tomorrow will come and today will be behind me...tomorrow will be better...all the tomorrows will get better! I hope for a better tomorrow for Lou, Nancy and Aunt Jackie...I know their road is much harder then mine. I pray for their tomorrow to be pain free...that's all we can ask for...one day at a time...day by day!